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  • To My Son, at 13

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    I wish that I had started writing to you earlier. And this wish is not to eliminate a general plaintive cry over lost time. Why the wish? I could have written earlier to form a different, possibly more enduring connection to you. I did not. But I start now. Please know that I now write…

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  • A Community

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    I did not want community this past weekend. I have been exhausted from drama of the world and across my life. I did not want community but community is what I got. This past weekend, my family and I attended a retreat for families with children who have Type 1 Diabetes. If one desired a…

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  • 525,600

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    Five years since diagnosis, a moment in time replete with dark, challenging, stressful feelings but a time to see first hand just how much stronger kids can be. Me? I was a hot mess, mixed in with much needed healthy doses of stoic practicality. We needed to do the insulin injections as she cried with…

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  • 29

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    For most, the number, twenty-nine, represents a count of something: years, dollars, tweet views, whatever. I too attach a meaning to this number but it is one that I assume is rather unique in this world. Twenty-nine represents the time I almost killed my daughter. Only a couple of months removed from her diagnosis with…

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  • It’s Beginning to Look a Lot Like Chaos

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    Meredith Willson did say it well, in his holiday classic, “It’s Beginning to Look a Lot Like Christmas“: A pair of Hopalong boots and a pistol that shootsIs the wish of Barney and BenDolls that’ll talk and will go for a walkIs the hope of Janice and JenAnd Mom and Dad can hardly wait for…

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  • Why?

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    My wife accuses me, rightly so, of asking this question too often. It is one thing, of many, that I do that annoys her. She asks me a question, for example, “can you please get me that bag of flour from the pantry?” My typical retort is “why?” And when I do, and her exasperation…

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  • Using Realtime Capabilities To Manage Type 1 Diabetes (Part 1)

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    In February 2018, my family of four — wife, 6-year-old boy and 3-year-old girl — were thrust quite suddenly into the world of Type 1 diabetes. We spent about five days in the hospital trying to stabilize my daughter and learning a whole lot about how to manage the life-threatening disease that would be with…

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